Saturday, November 14, 2015

Autographed Copies of The Listening Life

Hi friends,

A second blog post in 2 days? What?? It's an exciting time here, at least for me. Here is a little bit more about my new book, The Listening Life. I got to hold it for the first time last night!

The November issue of Christianity Today wrote a review. You can read it here.

I did an interview with Publishers Weekly last week. Read that one here.

If you would like an autographed copy of my new book, you can buy it through Paypal and I will send it to you. Click on the button here and fill out the form.

Friday, November 13, 2015

Quiet Revolution

Hi everyone, I am happy (and relieved) to announce that my new book, The Listening Life, is now available for sale on Kindle and other ebook readers. The months of buildup to book release, I swear, seem interminable. The official release date for the paperback is December 6th, but if you buy the paperback online you should have it before Thanksgiving. Thank you, friends. I am excited to share it with you.

You have may heard that the Quiet Revolution website launched a few months ago. This is the brainchild of Susan Cain, author of the bestselling book Quiet, who was kind enough to endorse my new book as well. I have written a few articles for QR, and I want to link to them today.

The Gifts of Introversion 

"I think it’s time to shift the conversation by celebrating the positive side of introversion. The more I have settled into my introversion over the past few years, the more I have come to appreciate its gifts. At this point, I wouldn’t want to be any other way."

How an Introvert Does a Book Tour

"Introverts write lots of books. We relish life in the underground, and few activities give us better opportunities to luxuriate in the quiet than writing. When I tell people I can’t go out with them because I’m tired, they object. But when I tell people I can’t go out because I have to write a book, they relent. Even though writing means blood, struggle, and agonizing introspection stretching toward despair, it’s still better than Tuesday happy hour with the co-workers you already spent all day with."

Why Listening Can Be a Gift

"I had learned that it is in quiet that we honor the sacred and painful moments of life. I had learned that presence is more than speaking, and that words can be barriers that separate us from others and from entering the moment we are currently living."

Thanks for reading, everyone! ~Adam

Monday, June 8, 2015

The Listening Life

In 2009, at about 4pm on Christmas Eve, as I lounged on the couch watching A Christmas Story, I was jolted by one of those creative revelatory shock waves that come along about every 6 years, if I'm lucky. I had published my first book two months earlier, and after the requisite phase of "I'm NEVER writing another freaking book again!" I was of course starting to think about my next project. I've heard that women have a mechanism in their brain that helps them forget about the pain of childbirth, so people will have more than one child. I'm pretty sure that writers have a similar coping mechanism, to help us forget about the agony of publishing the first book.

I had spent much of the afternoon walking, trying to burn some anticipatory calories before the next 24 hours of gluttony, attempting to conceive of an idea for book #2. Direct thought usually leads me to nothing but frustration and hopelessness. So with one eye focused on the movie and another eye trained on despair, I mumbled a prayer. "Lord, I've got nothing. But I think you've called me to be a writer. So, I'm listening."


As soon as I muttered the word, it did a U-Turn right back on me. My second book would be about listening.

Over the remainder of the holiday season, as I tried to avoid relatives, a plan fell into place. I would devote the next season of life to writing about listening. I had devoted the last ten years to the practice of listening, and now it was time to share what I had discovered.

I dove into the project, and read everything I could find on listening. I interviewed friends and colleagues. I even hired a fancy agent.

My book proposal was rejected by 10 publishers. Listening wasn't an edgy or eye-catching topic. One editor said, in a phrase that will haunt me to my dying day, "Your prose is workmanlike but uncompelling."

One publisher disagreed. InterVarsity Press, the publisher I never should have turned from in the first place, offered me a contract.

It has been a tumultuous 6 years, and I am excited and relieved to announce that my second book is available for pre-order. The Listening Life: Embracing Attentiveness in a World of Distraction will be published in December.

I have some things to share with you. First, the back cover copy:
Be quick to listen, slow to speak." ―James 1:19. How would our lives change if we approached every experience with the intention of listening first? In this noisy, distracting world, it is difficult to truly hear. People talk past each other, eager to be heard but somehow deaf to what is being said. Listening is an essential skill for healthy relationships, both with God and with other people. But it is more than that: listening is a way of life. Adam McHugh places listening at the heart of our spirituality, our relationships and our mission in the world. God himself is the God who hears, and we too can learn to hear what God may be saying, through creation, through Scripture, through people. By cultivating a posture of listening, we become more attentive and engaged with those around us. Listening shapes us and equips us to be more attuned to people in pain and more able to minister to those in distress. Our lives are qualitatively different―indeed, better―when we become listeners. Heed the call to the listening life, and hear what God is doing in you and the world.

And second, I am exceedingly grateful for my endorsements.

"Listening is one of the best gifts we can give or receive. Listening changes things. Listening, the way Adam McHugh describes it, could just change the world." Ruth Haley Barton, founder and president, Transforming Center, author of Life Together in Christ

"Adam McHugh is a voice worth listening to. His new book will be a gift to anyone who wants to cultivate what Jesus called "ears to hear" - John Ortberg, Senior Pastor at Menlo Park Presbyterian Church

"The Listening Life is the kind of book that made me at times not want to turn the page because I needed to! What the book did was still my soul and remind me to be still before God -- to silence the noise and open the closed doors to hear, and in hearing we learn that in listening to God and to one another we enter into the graces of love. On every page Adam McHugh offers wisdom that slowly marches us into a deeper kind of life, one marked by listening to God in a way that teaches us how to listen to one another and to ourselves. There are two kinds of people: those who talk and those who listen -- the former need to read this book slowly and listen well to the lesson about reverse listening, while the latter will discover fresh light on a discipline now deepened." -Scot McKnight, Julius R. Mantey Professor in New Testament, Northern Seminary.

"If it was possible to combine the voices of Dallas Willard, N.D. Wilson, and Jim Gaffigan, then what you would get is Adam S. McHugh. His writing is profound, lyrical, and self-deprecating in all the right ways. There are few books I want start again once I've finished. The Listening Life is now one of them. I adore this stunning, important book and want to give it to everyone I know." -Emily Freeman, author of Simply Tuesday: Small-Moment Living in a Fast-Moving World.

"Adam McHugh has been a significant contributor to the conversation about how introverts experience the world. His new book The Listening Life has the power to reshape how both introverts and extroverts make space for deep listening in a world that swims in the shallows. Highly recommended." -Susan Cain, author of Quiet

I realize that listening isn't the sexiest topic, but I believe it to be an incredibly important one. Everyone seems to be seeking to find their voice these days, but who will help them listen for it?
Thank you, everyone, for your continued support over the last few years. And thank you for helping me to tell others about my new book.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Thank You and Goodnight

It has been 3 years since I finished my work as a hospice chaplain. But I never stop thinking about it. Today, as a Throwback Thursday, I thought I would revisit my post after my last shift. 

Tonight I worked my very last shift as a hospice chaplain. It is midnight, my shift ended 11 minutes ago, and I am writing a blog post while my thoughts are fresh. I'm planning on going deep into the night, just as I have so many times when I've been on-call. And then on Friday I'm going to resume my previous life as a morning person.

I'm wearing my badge around my neck, for the very last time, as I write this. As another nod to sentiment, I just returned from a late night Del Taco run, which I have done probably 50 times between the hours of midnight and 6am in the last 2 years. Many times I circled the drive-thru just because it comforted me to know that other people were working at that time of night. While most of you have been oh-so-selfishly sleeping in your warm beds during these shadowless hours, some of us had to keep the world running. Big Fat Chicken tacos don't make themselves, you know.

I also just left my last voice mail for the team I worked for tonight. I ended it with "Peace out suckers!!" No one will laugh when they hear it. Hospice workers just aren't funny.

It's all but impossible to capture the experiences, the feelings, and the interactions that have formed these last 25 months. There is no way that I can fully describe what it feels like to go to bed with a beeper (yes, a beeper) next to your ear, and have it scream you out of sleep at 3am, like a rooster who's been doping. And that's only the preface to the terrors of what comes next: "Adam, there is a family who lost someone tonight and they're not coping well. The nurse needs your help for spiritual and psychological support. Oh, and their house is 50 minutes away from you, in east L.A. Tell us when you're finished, because we may have another visit after that for you."

When I told people I was a hospice chaplain, they would give me one of two responses. Either they would be absolutely mortified and look at me as though I were an alien from outer space, or else they would be incredibly moved and give me a hug. One time an old couple bought me a bottle of Syrah and a 20oz Rib eye after they found out what I did. One time a woman scowled and walked away after she found out what I did. One time a child yelled "I hate you!!", stomped on my foot, and ran away. I might have made that last one up.

But the extreme responses I received from others only echoed the contradictions that I experienced within myself. Hospice has been the best thing that ever happened to me. Hospice has been the worst thing that ever happened to me. Sometimes I feel like I have seen too much. Sometimes I feel like I have seen exactly what I needed to see. I feel like my heart grew 3 sizes. I feel like I left pieces of my heart all over Pasadena, and Monterey Park, and Pomona. I had days where I felt like taking off my shoes because I stood on holy ground. I had days where I felt like putting on layer after layer because I felt naked.

I have holy memories, and I have haunted memories, and they mingle in my mind, like a wedding attended by two families who hate each other.

I remember the man who threatened to commit suicide at 2am, and how I kept him on the phone for over an hour until he promised not to do it that night.

I remember the woman whose heart stopped beating the moment I said "Amen."

I remember the brothers who got into a fist fight after their dad died.

I remember Livia, who I sat with for hours and talked about her childhood in Italy.

I remember the family who complained bitterly about my service, even though I gave everything I had to that visit.

I remember Katherine, who told me what it was like to grow up in London during the Blitz.

I remember the woman who told my supervisor, "Either he needs to learn some goddam respect or else get another mother*%$ing job!"

I remember the people who said "You have been with us in the most important time. You are part of our family now."

I remember the time I was called 4 times in an 8 hour shift, and how I spent the next 3 days on the couch, depressed.

I remember the old woman at a nursing home, who answered my "Good morning" with a brazen flip of her middle finger.

I remember the time when I sat in a nursing home with a grieving woman with early onset dementia who had just lost her mom. She asked me the same exact question every 4 minutes for 2 hours.

I remember the late night drives to the City of Industry, where very little industry happens aside from strip clubs and prostitution. I remember the late night drives to the City of Commerce, where very little commerce happens aside from strip clubs and prostitution. Don't go to the City of Industry or Commerce late at night.

I remember the first time I was the first person to inform someone that a relative had died. It was my very first death visit.

I remember Eulogia ("blessing" in biblical Greek), the 99 year old woman who had lived in her house for 80 years. Shortly before her 100th birthday her family moved her into a nursing home. When I visited her the next day, she saw me and immediately burst into tears and said "I didn't think you would know where to find me!"

I remember the time that I prayed for a man who had been unresponsive for three days. When I took his hand to pray, his fingers closed around mine. It was the last time he moved anything voluntarily.

I remember the two sisters - young, smart, attractive, and blonde, with dream lives in their crosshairs - and how they watched their mother succumb to breast cancer.

I remember the girlfriend of the dying man who sat by his bedside all Christmas eve and all Christmas day, when his family wouldn't come. They had been dating for 3 months. He was perfectly healthy when they started dating. They met at church.

I remember the men of older generations who didn't feel comfortable expressing emotions. They slowly died on the inside while their wives died on the outside.

I remember the time that I threw my beeper across the street and had to hunt for it in the dark for 10 minutes. I remember the time that I managed to turn off my beeper while asleep. I remember the last time I ever turned off my beeper. It was an hour ago.


The apostle Paul tells us to "give thanks in all circumstances," and as I penetrate through all the memories, all the late night drives, all the pop music I used to keep me awake, all the agony and the joy, all the holy and the profane, all the cursing and the praise, all the solitary walks around Pasadena City Hall, all the graveyard Del Taco runs and daybreak Starbucks runs, I uncover gratitude. I am grateful to be done, yes, but I am grateful for all of it.

Thank you for teaching me about pain. Thank you for teaching me not to run from it, but to sit with it.

Thank you for the sacred moments, when I was able to hold a patient's hand as he took his last breath.

Thank you for teaching me about death, that it is always awful and sometimes beautiful.

Thank you for opening my heart to family, who may war with another but almost always show up in the same room when they need to.

Thank you for showing me that my dreams and desires will not always pulsate within me.

Thank you for teaching me about depression, that it often shows up at times of transition.

Thank you for clarifying my priorities, for showing me what is significant in life.

Thank you for teaching me that my most profound thoughts fall completely flat in moments of life and death.

Thank you for making me a better person than I was 2 years ago.

Thank you for showing me that neither life nor death can separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus.


When you spend as much time around death as I have over these last 2 years, when every day on the calendar is Ash Wednesday, you learn that ultimately life offers no happy endings. Every life ends in sadness and grief and pain and silence. And all we can do is struggle and work, believe and doubt, hope and fall, run and wrinkle. Every person has both a victor and a victim inside of her. You have more fight and strength in you than you ever imagined, but you also have more weakness and vulnerability than you ever thought. Your bodies will decay and ultimately lose the fight, but you will battle valiantly and courageously. I have seen it time and time again from people you wouldn't think would be so strong.

When you work in hospice, you spend a lot of time with people who are waiting, suspended in that interim period between light and darkness. But whether in life or in death, we are people who wait. We anticipate a Day when the deathbed will be transformed into the cradle of resurrection, when the last gasps of death will be modulated into the cries of new life.

Until that glorious daybreak, we pray with the Church every night:

Keep watch, dear Lord, with those who work, or watch, or weep this night, and give your angels charge over those who sleep. Tend the sick, Lord Christ, give rest to the weary, bless the dying, soothe the suffering, pity the afflicted, shield the joyous, and all for your love's sake. Amen.

Goodnight. Thank you.