Wednesday, November 5, 2008


I was thinking the other day that if I were a character in a story, I wouldn't be the protagonist or antagonist or sidekick or even a major character. I would be the narrator. I might be a narrator like Alfred Hitchcock who occasionally shows up in his own stories, but I would still play the narrator. Even as I'm writing that, it sounds boring, but I think it's true. But I'm the guy who enjoys standing outside of the story and observing the characters interacting with one another. I like to look for patterns and trends and I like putting the actions and habits of others into words. I don't usually get bogged down in the details of the story, but I like the macroscopic lens. I'd like to think that I see things that others, embroiled in the plot of the story, don't always see with the same clarity.

I've come to realize that I actually enjoy reflecting on most of the experiences I've had than I do having the experiences themselves. I enjoy being around people, but I tend to walk among the fringes of a community, observing and reflecting. I'm not sure how much of this is inherent to my introversion, and how much of this stems from my passions as a writer. I interviewed this week at a wonderful church, but I left feeling like I may be a better fit as a quasi-outsider than as an insider leading people in the action of the community.